This week's mood swings

I realised that my mood lately has been closely linked with productivity.

On Monday, I wrote out my new jokes and went to an open mic and did well. I felt good. On Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, I just watched Youtube and Netflix. I felt bad. Today is Friday. I ran some errands, and wrote a few blog entries and sorted out some of my thoughts. I feel better again.

The main pattern here I see here is I have been feeling guilty for being unproductive.


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