New Day, New Me.

Changed the title of this blog again - this time to '100 Words A Day'. I realized I have been just doing nothing since things have gone back to some kind of normal and I feel like crap about it. I keep thinking of the times I used to feel positive and I think the most recent was near the beginning of this year, when I decided I wanted to put more effort into being a content creator. Right now, I'm not feeling any positivity at all. Everything just seems so big and overwhelming and I feel so small and helpless, and in the end, I just escape into Youtube videos and Netflix and computer games. These distractions are useful to get me through a rough patch, but I'm kind of stuck in the middle of the rough patch and I need a way to dig myself out.

Right now, I feel like all I can handle are small tasks. There are too many things I would like to improve about my life, my self and my habits.

Here are my goals:

I want to sleep 7 hours each night. Lack of sleep has been making me feel tired, unmotivated and generally bad about myself.

I will write at least 100 words a day on this blog. I eventually want to get back to writing a new novel and writing jokes, but right now, all I can handle is short blog entries, and hopefully it will oil my rusty gears and I can make some progress and get confident in writing again.

I want to practice the guitar 10 minutes a day. I realize I have not touched the guitar in months and have forgotten most of what I had learnt last year. I'll do this 10 minutes a day and see if I can relearnt what I forgot and make some progress on the 3 half songs I have been learning since last year.

I want to do some exercises to strengthen my lower back. I pulled a muscle 2 weeks ago and it hurt like hell. I need to start taking care of myself better as I get older.

I would like to train my attention span to be longer. I realize how short it is right now and I can't focus on listening, watching or reading anything properly.

Here are the steps I will take:

I will put my phone away by 1:00am each night, and try to be okay with my thoughts.

I will write 100 words in this blog each night at 10:00pm. And no cheating with writing about how little there is to write about.

I will practice the guitar at 9pm each night for 10 minutes or more.

I will do some stretching exercises each morning and strengthening exercises each night. Just a few minutes each.

I will not watch Youtube or Netflix while playing a game on my phone.

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