Sam's Sanity Diary

I just did something the dumbest thing and I instantly regretted it and I think this is one that will keep me feeling stupid for years to come. We were out with our friends, a couple and their 2 kids and we love them, just two families enjoying dinner and having a fun time catching up. Then a dish was served and it was octopus. Then our friend mentioned that she hates it whenever she finds out that a food she loves to eat turns out to be an relatively intelligent animal. And I said that reminded me of a Jimmy O-Yang joke about how he hates eating free range chicken. He doesn't want to eat the happy chicken, he wants to eat the chicken that's going through a divorce. And as soon as I said that, I remembered my wife had told me that these friends we're having dinner with also going through a divorce. They're wonderful people and I love them but in a moment of self-centredness, I forgot what was happening in their lives and I accidentally invented the worst thing I could h...

I felt really good about two weeks ago and the feeling's gone but I want to remind myself things are good. I cleaned up my mancave. I sorted all my mail and filed all my bank statements. I shot and edited a video while we were in Lenggong. CNY party with friends is done and dusted. I still struggle with the feeling of not having learnt and done enough with my life, but I also know if I die today, it's not so bad. My wife and kid has some money to last for awhile, and I gave the world some laughter. Things I am glad about: The mancave is finally clean! I always feel like it can be cleaner, but let's call this Phase 1 complete. I sorted out all the mail. It's always been my weakness, but I finally got it sorted out and I am so proud of myself. Uncle Sim Productions is registered. I can start earning money as a business which is what I should have done 20 years ago, but I am so proud of myself for finally taking this first step. I shot and edited a video of our visit to Le...