Sam's Sanity Diary

I keep thinking I am overwhelmed and I want to do less, but the reality is that I am just afraid of being overwhelmed. I keep thinking I have something stressful to think about at work and therefore should not have anything else on my plate, but the thing is I can't really do anything other than worry about it and meanwhile, I'm actually not really doing anything productive and I just end up watching Youtube and playing Plants vs Zombies. But on a subconscious level, I feel like shit, because I feel like my life is just passing me by. Then on Sunday, I did a livestream with Jimmy Earll and I realised that is what I've been missing this whole time. I need this. If not for my career, then at least for my sanity. So the plan is to get back into it, but to try and do it better than I did before. Some mistakes I would like to correct this time around: 1. Paying too much attention to the viewers' chat and not focusing enough on the guest and content. I was pretty much relying...

So it's been 3 weeks since I said I would write every day and I only wrote once. I have no excuses. But I do want to say that although I still think that is a great idea, I forgot how much I hate keeping around a bunch of mediocre free flow writing. Ultimately, even if I do write every day, I will still likely come back and edit out most of it. Having said that, I am prone to bouts of laziness, so if you read anything crappy on this blog, just know that I meant to delete it. I can accept that people think I am not good, but I can't stand the thought of people thinking that I don't realise when I am bad. Anyway, here are a few things I wanted to write about. I threw out my back a month ago. I actually wanted to write about this but I just kept putting it off. I'm just old. I went rock climbing as usual with my son, and while warming up on what I thought would be a relatively easy climb, my back just started hurting and for a few days, I was in survival mode. Driving home...